once born..awaits the hourglass

it came at a time when i was a curious little boy..one question..'is it possible to create a new color?'.. .and i literally meant NEW color..that has nothing to do with..and looks nothing like whats on the color wheel [R O Y G B V(for all you artists out there)]..but i dont believe our brains to be highly capable of formulating such a complication..ive always thought about things like that..such as... are there only so many songs we can create to a certain point that we can come up with the total number?

i feel somewhat lazy to blog at the moment so i guess what was once..going to be another pile of jumbled phrases..i'll just have to short cut the gist of it...

so my mom likes feng shui...i leave the toilet up..and she tells me to put it down...i go why and who for?...just because do it ha!......cuz FENG SHUI!

i wanted to help her out with the arrangement in the house..and since i have an eye for environment and space...somewhat....i thought i couldve been of some help in making the house look and feel more like a model home...i figured that now would be the best time...since i still have the time...but i guess that isnt happening anytime soon since she doesnt want my opinion on what i think about her old wannabe italian wood theme caca...im sorrie ma but it just doesnt work...its so clumped up together n it hurts the eyes...'its my house i'll do wateber i want!..'...shes just like a big kid..shes awesome..

connections..suck...yeah my internet connection is rotten and unemployed at times that i need it most...i get diced often...it needs to get fixed soon..because its not fun waiting for connections to reconnect.. . ...and then...falling asleep trying to wait for it...n then accidentally oversleeping and waking up 4 days later and going...'HOLY CRAP WTF JUST HAPPENED'... . .. . . . . . . ok...well....... not really.

..and so i was thinking about doing a vlog...

im into ping pong...even tho ive never gotten the chance to really play it..and just like dodgeball(it ruled in PE)......it gets me all crazy fun stuff like that..soo im gona watch BALLS OF FURY..

im guilty.......what a double no-no.........so last night i had a root beer........for one..it was a soda...and for two....... . . ..it was a root beer.....AND IM SUPPOSED TO HATE ROOT BEER...but it tasted so good at that moment ..wait..wth is going on with me and my decision-making/personal beliefs....tsk tskk..

ive been caught off guard again lately..... . . ...and it makes me smile :)...

...sticky toffee pudding ice cream......is the next big thing..

...oh and this weekend i had the pleasure of spending time with family...my have they grown...and one of them turned out to be my p r o d i g y.. ...hes a rocker....i made him.....oh and speaking of them....there was an abundance of stories...ghost stories being passed around within our conversations..it was truly horrifying fun....ones that would make the crybabies cry like babies...

...K-PAX opened up my eyes...and made my night... ......and..maybe something else....

[so much for the 'gist' of things]




robotsindisguise

pick your poison

..'dont mess with the bull young man..or you'll get the horns..'...and i did sleep..but this isnt about today...its about how i woke up yesterday morning..and peeked through the blinds to see something insanely random..so there was a winnie-the-poo-and-tigger-too balloon tied to the white car parked in front of my house..which happens to be the one i drive...and so i found myself standing there continuing to peek through the blinds..staring at it..as if i was intrigued...but i was...it set off a creative blur somewhere inside me..something about it...composition or just plain wtf factor.....it inspired me to make something of it.........well...that... and the fact that it was so out of nowhere....freakn ridiculous...it made my morning..

i thought it was cute... you know..the whole car thing...mmm can guys say that? the word 'cute'..but i say that a lot of things are cute..i casually use it to describe what entices me visually ....objects.. animals.. songs.. toys.. words..i guess it tends to ring feminine..but not the way i think about it..or maybe its that i just dont care what people think...to a certain extent....or at least about that word........cute........okay so wow...i just used the word 'cute' like 10,000 times..

..the other day i was watching this 80s movie called...WarGames...i didnt get to finish it..but it was fun to watch and it had matthew broderick..whos definitely cool in my book..and this other girl from the breakfast club (my all time favorite)..it was interesting to see them act together in a movie..knowing they each had been in their own classic 80s movies.. so it was about this high school kid that knew computers like the back of his hand...and it was hilarious because all you would see was the infamous trademark green text type up on black screen..and that was it..nothing else..it was like DOS mode the whole time or something ..he would hack into his school's record files and change his grades...then somehow along the way he mistakenly gets into U.S. military strategic files...which lead him into accidentally start a countdown sequence to launch a nuke headed for the U.S...whats cool is he starts f r e a k i n out about it..and i could relate to that..cuz ive seen myself go crazy like that over s t i c k y situations before many-a-times..a paranoia case....truth tho its not so funny when youre in them but its hilarious........later down the line..

minimalist design..mobility evolved...speaking of crazy moments...mm not exactly...but i find fun things pretty funny.....like the SEGWAY for example...wth is that thing!?...it looks like half a lawnmower and a water fountain...well of course i know what it is..i mean its been out for years..its just...you know...i reallllyyy want one....i remember this one time i was in the city walkin around...assuming i was coming back from class and heading down to the underground muni..and in the middle of the street..stopped at a red light..was this dude with a backpack on...coool shoes....and wth this kid was on a freakn segway!...i almost cried laughing cuz when the light went green he was riding it on the street without a care..acting as if it was a car or something..riding along with the rest of em...and i look closer to see this thing and it was my freakn friend from school hahaaa! i was thinking to myself...' wth is he doing riding a segway that bastard!?'....n then i thought..ohhhhh man wat a too-cool-for-school guy.....

'iced water please..'...so yea....pretty much.....that or iced tea..or pink/raspberry lemonade...but i think water is the power of the world...soda vs. water?......w a t e r hands down...dont get me wrong...at one point i was addicited to soda...you coulda counted the number of times i would even sip water in a month on half a hand...lets just say water didnt exactly flow through my veins years back...now-a-days its hard for me to even sip a soda...my taste buds resent it...ive adapted well to a greater health [haha im not even healthy ghetoutahea]...because water is king....its a total 180 for me....so i pretty much hate soda now..but....there are times...i tend to drink carbonized energy drinks from time to time...and i do love those...so yea.....sounds contradicting doesnt it?....i guess im just w e i r d like that....... [0_o]

................SHIN CHAN ROCKS MY SOLAR SYSTEM.

playitbyear

here..we shut the blinds downwards

tis the day it wanders..my mind of course..i took a power-nap enough to give me that extra nocturnal fuel..ive been up but if you know me well..i never sleep..ive caught myself zoning out at certain points of the day slurring and confusing my thoughts..it happens....to everybody and i must say today i was caught off guard..for the past few days ive been thinking about a certain something..or is it a thing.....whatever it may be..shall be kept behind closed eyes..for that is..how they say..'are the window to the soul..'..so i'll shut them for now..

bang bang music bang..and im swaying my head to the newest street beats...ive just picked up a few new albums and they sound RAD..theyre pretty slammin'...which is how i define the sound only few bands have..and its exactly what i love at this moment..and is it me...or do ipods need to be constantly fed? theyre like a music-tamagotchi...constantly giving it electric formula..making sure its snug in its protective case and away from extreme temperatures..

my mind is going going..im still awake..my second wind is charged..and im not a big fan of light...the sun needs to go somewhere else....the majority of time i spend during the day..is in my room..sanctuary...i consider it..a personal and only place for me to be..away from the outside world..its like its own...as i look up and around..it cant explain me any better...i can shut the door and e v e r y t h i n g after it quiets down...shuts off...fades away...its an artistically-spiritual bubble that is mine and mines only..i created it...which leads me into now venting onward the fact that the light will continue to seep its way through the cracks of the blinds i tried to so tightly...keep shut..because you see ive been watching a movie or two..a korean movie and a japanese movie to be exact..and of course i love it..just without the dark-interfering-rays of light..and watching bands from certain parts of the world on youN00b..of which who are amazing..and not from here...which will be kept secret..the whole day was pretty much like that...all over the place...it is now 7:13am and.......i am an elitist.

*to those who love bottle caps with faces drawn on top of them..heres a cool face [0_o]

zipadeedoodas are small lollipops

layin low layin low..soo i was home the past week and from that time on til now the subject of 'dogs' have been coming up..i saw two of my cousins who now have new dog puppies like things and i love em both..theyre both fullbred too which is always best..one is a maltese [i think thats right..] and the other one is just awesome stuff.so the maltese is the cutest thing ive seen since forever and it looks like a stuft toy forealz man..it smelled great fur of human shampoo..ahaa and the other dog was a iba shinu [if thats also correct..]. it was a gorgeous dog and i love it like crazy..he's got a white iba and that is supposed to be pretty rare..nontheless..the thing here is...that i might get a dog too..maybe......soon....

the secret code below reveals the dog breed i want:

[alajaksudhkadjkaueyawjelasdwelshcorgialsdkjalkjsdlkajsdlkjalksowehlkaksd]

milkshakes are the drank of choice

i had a bit of everything today..from good to contemplative..to people-watching..well actually i kept from the norm of observing others..cuz in fact i didnt get to draw people today..

so this afternoon at borders i grabbed a few books on animals and people..i started drawing..my warm-ups..linework..and then i had realized what most artists feel when they havent drawn for a good amount of time..disappointment..it was the let-down..the kind of confusion that drains the inspiration out from under you..i froze for a bit thinking..'holy crap..i suck so much right now..whats wrong with me...this is terrible..'..it was amusing to see people surround me..they take their supposedly unintentional brisk walks past the sketchbook to see what i was drawing from the book of reference on my left knee..i was in between the book aisle in the travel or history section..and sat on the assumed chair/ladder the employees use in organizing books on shelves and whatnot..it was a full house today..as far as the couches..tables and chairs were concerned..so i had no choice but to park myself elsewhere..which im definitely accustomed to..i adapt very well to stuff like that..something about being alone and out in public..reminded me much of when i was in sf..i was in my element..im used to being alone..i dont really get too self-conscious about people watching me draw..i think its nice to see things like that..theres that mere few seconds a connection is made between strangers..a token of appreciation is what i take it as from someone who i'll never see again..but im used to that..because ive seen tens of thousands of people in cafes..on the subway..and on the sidewalks in the city..my peripheral vision catches most things..i got a lot of looks today..the kind that may be interpreted in several ways..maybe it was because i didnt exactly look..walk..or act like im from this particular area..or maybe i dressed like i was not from the suburbs but..rather a subway hopper..street commuter.. trademarked white ipod earphones and messenger bag..an artsy-citykid....nontheless..i kept my social skills at its most natural..

so after going thru a book or two i decided to take my things and check to see if there was an empty seat anywhere in the cafe area..and to my luck i asked my good man if it was taken..he instantly replied..'no'.....i nodded my head in thanks..the kid had his head buried in the homework..such an intense vibe and intention opposite what i was there for..i sat down and took my stuff out..a few markers and a pen..another book on my lap..decided it best to free my knee and placed..a book on chickens..to the chair on my left..so here i went..j-rock music..focused..and drawing exotic hens..wow okay.....but i dont draw animals and today was probably the first time i ever had..i need the practice..so im at this table with a few empty seats and the kid across me still buried in the books..my eyes fixated on my sketchbook..i notice a friend of his comes over and she starts talking to him..she then takes the seat one over from me to my left..and a few minutes later two other girls came over..i saw that there was only one chair on their side so i automatically offered to her the one i was using that had my books n stuff on it..she seemed surprised i did that..she smiled and said thanks..it wasnt a problem at all to me..then this dude came and suddenly i was surrounded by a study group..i thought to myself..i think im in their way..

so it ended up being a whole group of college kids doing their thing..a last person came to the table and she ended up standing..she joined in on discussing with them whatever it was they were debating about..she took notes with her backpack on..wait waitt..hold on a sec..'this is not right..' i thought to myself...this girl here was having to stand while the rest were sitting?..and i was in a chair she could be in..i do the next most natural thing..i look at her..take my earphones off and apologize..'im so sorry..i dont want to bother..please..take my chair..here..' but before i could finish off my sentence the whole table suggested it was ok and that i wasnt an intervention at all to them..the girl..she looked at me and smiled saying that i didnt have to move..it was kinda really cute..she blushed for a quick sec..for what reason im not sure..but she really pleaded me to stay in the chair..but knowing me i couldnt do that..i took my things..got up..and once again offered her the chair..i then smiled at her and headed down the same aisle i was in earlier but i found the back bench behind everything to be most comfortable..few minutes into the sketchbook and i see one of the girls from that table come all the way to the back just to tell me that the chair was free..'i am so sorry i felt so bad..we felt like we kicked you out or squeezed you out of your seat..' of course i said that wasnt the case at all..i appreciated that she even made the effort to come over and tell me that..but the cutest thing was..the girl that i gave my chair to came all the way back to where i was..just right after her sister had left..and she said pretty much the exact same thing pleading me to take the chair that was again vacant......oh i didnt mention this earlier did i? she was totally cute..so i introduced myself to her as she did the same..we gradually started talking about other things..she didnt seem to mind yet i felt i was wasting her time..she seemed really patient..stood there smiling at me the whole time..the reason being that?..*iono shoulder-hands gesture*..she seemed truly genuine in talking to me..she made a lot of eye contact..and smiled at me..kinda blushed..it was totally cute..i was surprised a cute girl to even converse with me..i was a stranger..she was totally cool..really sweet..and i like that..it seemed she didnt want to go but me being concerned for her own time i told her again that i was sorrie for holding her up....i guess she really likes smiling...i was gona ask her number..but i didnt..seeing how she was in front of me..she might not have minded......................she looked mighty cute with that backpack on like a lil kid..what a baby..

this was the longest blog ever..................why?...[insert hurtful comments here]

p.s. san jose tomorrow.

action figures twist

its been a long time coming..the point where i have the time to get back into drawing.i remember when i lived in the city my world was completely opposite of where i am now.i went through a lot of things back then..and it held me back from fully and completely unlocking what potential i had in myself..i loved art school and it is the best thing that ever happened to me..theres nothing like it..just everything about it..its like its own world..i guess its..well no it is a passion thing..i live this stuff and as a kid i grew up this way..basically..art rocks.

wow....what was that all about..ok anyways..so tomorrow im basically gona take my sketchbooks and pens with me and head towards the laguna area and into border's books..3pm-9pm..id say a good six hours would be sufficient..theyve got plenty of books to refer to for practice and plenty of helpless victims and targets[people] to draw..and i'll try and make this a weekly thing maybe few days a week..so pretty much i'll be a border's bum.....

my couch eats clothes

ive been downloading a lot of awesome music lately but thats not the point.i just ate some horrid microwave burritos which i keep downing because on the inside they taste lovely.ok not really but the shortbread cookies n ice cream tasted yummy like a rodeo and watching the food network for some reason enhances the food that i eat..to be honest this is way too early to blog cuz im a nocturnal cave monster and i should follow the code of blogging right before the sun comes up..ok wow that was pointless..do you know i airdrum like theres no tomorrow..i swear ive got two no.2 pencils sitting parallel next to each other in front of my computer..and i do it everyday..but no its so believeable when i do it to the music its a doozy!..ok um..so now ive just told the world which is probably made up of one and half people caring to read this..one of the nerdiest things anybody could do..moving onn..so yea i can see this really shows im bored off my chair and its okay cuz typing is therapeutic..the funniest thing i heard today that made me laugh my pants off was when i was watching top chef and one of the judges [who..by the way...is so super fine]..said this about one of the chef's dishes..'he could've fried anything..he could've fried my toe and made it taste like heaven'..ahhaa i was like wow where did that come from..? okay so maybe i made that last part up my memory is as sharp as a velcro strap..this has got to be the most pointless and insignificant pieces of words put together ever in the history of writing stuff down..which i will be writing more of in the future because my mind works pointlessly..i think ive just used the word pointless about a thousand times in this thing..wat is wrong with me..my academic skills have dropped to an all-time low..oh by the way giraffes are the tallest aliens in the world..yea i just made that one up..goodnight ewoks.

the insomnia doesn't really change

soo all of a sudden i get this burst of inspiration to go ahead and try learning the guitar on acoustic..and using online tutorials is quite..well lets just say interesting and messy..it definitely requires patience..which i think i have..i can't wait to actually play a song but even though i'd love to have one down by tomorrow..the chances are almost non-existent..but not impossible..aha who am i kidding..but im really excited to even be excited to want to learn..the passion is there..cuz the guitar is the last thing i thought i could ever be able to hold much less play ba ba black sheep on..i've also just finished up practicing some beginning excercises and i can feel the calluses build up on a finger or two already..i've got a printed sheet of tabs i can't yet decipher but i wana play it pretty soon..and maybe even squeak my lil voice out along to it in my room all by myself where i can keep any of it from grossing out others..my voice is so terrible..or is it..?

first blog on my b-day freakn what

woo for insomniacs wth am i still doin up? i have no idea as to the fact of why but i sure am enjoying it. i'll most likely be sleeping soon but im thinking of whether i should post some old artwork up. i haven't been drawing or painting much recently or really at all for that matter. ah what the hey i guess i'll have some random sketches up soon ya dig. aw man the sun's coming up..crap!